Waiting

I am, yet again, waiting to hear about a job. This time I had 2 interviews; one by phone, the other in person. And, now, I'm waiting. If you recall from a previous post, I am not good at waiting. Ask my mom. She was glad (at least at Christmas time) that I no longer lived at home. She could actually surprise me with my gifts. Because, of course, I did not wait until Christmas to find out what I was getting. I hunted. And, I usually found what I was looking for. (Don't tell my husband, but I did that with my engagement ring, too. I'm terrible. I admit it.) (I am only telling you here because he doesn't read my blog. So, I'm trusting you. OK?)

Surprisingly, I've actually gotten to the point where I would be OK not getting the job. Don't get me wrong. The opportunity seems like a good one. But, in my waiting time, I've been thinking about everything I would miss...Caroline's hugs, preschool time with Adam, Bible study with Peter, room mom for Nicolas.

This weekend the pastor's sermon hit a hard note for me. He said that sometimes God takes away every option so our only choice is to obey Him. If I don't get this job, I will be convinced God is doing that to me. (FOR me?) I have the potential to do great and wonderful things with my Mary Kay business. I just haven't. We also want to be prepared in case we find ourselves wanting to home school Nicolas. (If public school doesn't go well, we've agreed to pull him out.) So, I trust whatever happens will be God's will. Only He knows the future plans He has for us.

In the meantime, though, I'm waiting. I better go do something productive with my time.